Dreams

The other night a friend posted a question to my husband about his dreams and to envision it. Well I have been thinking about this all weekend. My husband can not express his dreams, because he will not allow himself to dream. We have been taught that you know that you can not have it so don't dream about it and then you will not be disappointed.

I can see that point. I used to have so many dreams and now I just focus on the day to day tasks. My life is comfortable. I stay busy with the horse sand cows and chickens and dogs and day to day tasks at teh farm. Then the kids and all of their business and games. My husbands crazy schedule and then my paying job.

When was the last time that I dreamed???????????????????

Did I see myself in this position 5 years ago? No I did not. I honestly never thought I would marry again or be a step-mom. I never thought I would be working in this same job for 10 years now.

What are my dreams? I truly wish that I could make an impact on society and do something for the kids that are out there that are lost. They have been caught up in the drug world, their parents don't care, teachers don't care, and they seem as if they have nothing. I want to show them that there is a way and that people do care.

I do not feel important in the big realm of things, but I know that I can make someone feel important and if I can show a young teenager the way to be a sucess and not follow the wrong path, then I can not imagine a better feeling.

My husband has been in law enforcement so long and has had to fight his way up for so long, that I think he has lost all compassion. I wish I could help him find that and I think that he could be happy with the simple things in day to day adventures.

We are so stressed and pushed to make appointments and pay bills and keep everything rolling smoothly, that we forget that we are very blessed. We have so much and yet we have no serenity or peace. We fail to show the people around us that we love them so much .

I feel like I must challenge myself to step up. Step up and do what I am not sure but I will work on that. Am I important? YES. Do I know why I am important or what am I supposed to do with my life? NO